I feel a rut coming on and It's already bearing down upon me.
I'm surrounded by the lies and dogs of despair I once wrote of many times before.
I'm positively sick of this. The only thing keeping me from just dropping everything and running is lack of funds. Give me the money, and I'll go places...
Isn't that always the kicker? Give the kids the money... Invest in the kids... invest in the schooling... and they'll all go places... Grade A Bullshiite Muslim.
Spend some time with your freakin kids and quit relying on other fallible humans (ie: teachers) to raise them.
Screw the education system. It's all a crock. They tell you a degree gets you X amount of money. Lies. If I had a dollar for every one of my friends with a degree that are as broke as heck, I wouldnt need my own degree.
Life is funny like that.
Then there are people promising you the moon... Newsflash: It's NOT a wonderful life... this is reality.
I just want to leave it all behind for at least a week. Spend some time alone. Collect my thoughts. Read what I want. Write what I want. Speak my mind to whomever I want and actually stand behind my beliefs.
I want to not feel insecure... I want to trust my own decisions (in design and in life). I want to answer to no one but God and myself.
I WANT TO SCREW THE SYSTEM.
Screw "change."
"They will believe a lie and be damned..." or something to that effect.
/end rant. &hearts
