My life in days.

Wow... this is going to be an interesting end to 2009.

• 1 day til Redstone.
• 3 days til Alpha Chi show (Ttown) with Kinder.
• 4 days til my Art History final.
• 5 days til my last day of regular classes.
• 7 days til Rare Martini show with Kinder.
• 12 day til my Typography final/last official day of college.
• 14 days til graduation.
• 16 days til 12th and Porter (Nashville) show with Kinder.
• 18 days til Colorado.
• 23 days til my return from Colorado
• 27 days til Christmas.
• 34 days til I can yell "peace out" to 2009.

Oh yeah, factor in figuring out what I want to do with my life somewhere in the mix lol.
The prayers are definitely appreciated.

-KW

Yep.

I got a lot to be thankful for.

w00t.

I'll face this night... with Christ alone.

The journey ahead is nothing that He and I can't handle.
I accept that.
This is it.
I'm doing what He told me to do a long time ago... and that's to trust Him.

"I may be down, but I will rise. It may be dark, but God is light."

Rereading an old book I haven't read in many years, but finally seems relevant to me now. Purity and Holiness are possible. I've just forgotten the ways and means to get there. I got the salvation down... time to work on the sanctification and spirit-filling.

I thank God everyday for 718 and what He's done for me through it.

"He said, 'Naked I came from my mother's womb, And naked I shall return there. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away. Blessed be the name of the LORD.'" - Job 1:21

Tired...

I'm done asking for more time.

• More time to get my life together.
• More time to get my spirituality together.
• More time to heal.
• More time to become a better potential mate.
• More time to work on my problem areas.
• More time to finish school.
• More time to find a job.
• More time to figure out His will for my life.
• More time to become financially stable.

Now I'm just going to take my time.

• No more cycles.
• No more inconsistency.
• No more drama.
• No more heartache.
• No more rushing.
• No more rash decisions.
• No more decisions without Him.
• No more guilt.
• No more failures and shortcomings.

I'm done with that. I've started stagnating and I don't like it. Time to move forward. Now who's with me?

For the record, I choose not to talk to you as much because it hurts to talk to you... and in recent days, each conversation has ended in argument or tears, and I'm weary of that. That doesn't mean my silence is permanent. There's not a doubt in my mind that we can be friends. However, I feel I'm more of a distraction to you than anything right now.

So in the nicest way possible, and as friend who is beyond tired of seeing his friend half-arse her way through life, I say: Chill out and grow up. You have so much potential that you're wasting by seeking after trivial things. Things that will let you down. Focus on the things that mean something... God, family, school... Everything else can, and will fall into place after those. Call it "Sunday School" all you want, but it's true and you can't deny that. Swallow that pride (and spit out that fire)... and live your life the way you know you need to live it, because you were meant to live for so much more than what you're living for.

Yeah... I said it.

No concluding remarks. This is it.
-KW

Dear Colorado trip...

Would you please get here faster?
Kthxbai.

November is finally here. Hopefully the cool weather will stick around for awhile this time.
In just about a month, I will be attending my final college classes... That's so weird to me. It seems like yesterday I was graduating from Briarwood.

My, how I've changed... for the better and for the worse... But I'm working on the "worse." I actually have the desire to change for once, and not just the hollow words behind it. It's hard to do what He says sometimes, but if you just trust Him, He'll take care of you. I have to keep reminding myself that on a daily basis.

I know what I want... but I don't know if it's what I need. And that's a tough place to be in at this stage of my life...
So I greet you with annoyance, Quarter Life Crisis, please don't make yourself comfortable.

-KW