Well that felt right. I like peace. It's a beautiful thing :)

I'm truly growing weary of getting my hopes up, only to have them dashed to the stone before my very eyes.

Oh well... to God be the glory anyway.

May Your will be done, just like I honestly prayed it would be... even if the outcome isn't what I want right now. What You want is all that's important to me. Every time I try on my own, I make a mess of it. Please give me the strength to surrender my selfish, self-centered, only-child desires to You and You alone. I'm tired of the cycle. I will run this race with patience, so help me God.

Dangerous prayers need to be prayed for a reason. They really test your sincerity... not to mention your trust of the One you pray to. This world has nothing for me. He alone is mine. He's all I truly need. And I'm sorry I've lost sight of that, for both our sakes.

-Kendrick

What should've been posted on Monday:

The book reading is moving along quite well. It's got some really good stuff to say and I'm trying to apply it. The main thing is that we grow closer to God. Without Him, we will fail... and I would prefer that not to happen :) We're taking all necessary measures to prevent that too, and that's very exciting and reassuring. Just gotta remember to pray without ceasing.

And yes, there's a girl... and she makes my heart happy... (when she doesn't frustrate me ;) kidding!). I'm learning to take things in stride, forgo some of my old "only-child" habits, and even what buttons NOT to push lol. I look forward to what the future holds :) One day at a time.

Today (10/29/09):

I think life is a beautiful thing :)
I read an awesome quote on someone's facebook the other day, and it really spoke to me:

"It is an insult to God to believe that our screw-ups are greater than His mercy." - Matt Pitt.

I couldn't agree more. Even when I feel like such an idiot or do something really stupid, I shouldn't get bogged down in the guilt and shame that sometimes arises. Now, that doesn't mean I shouldn't try to not repeat my actions, it just means that if I fall, I need to pick myself back up and move forward... because I'm covered by His mercy.

Just read the chapter in this book about communicating effectively. It was a good eye-opener. Also eye-opening was another triangle from the previous chapter. In order to succeed, you need all three kinds of love: spiritual, physical, and emotional. As a whole, this book is very helpful in showing what I'm doing right, and what I need to work on... and it keeps getting better.

That's all... a little disjointed today, but sometimes I like doing the whole "stream-of-consciousness" thing. :)

Adieu,
Kendrick

rain rain rain...

"Grey Days" usually make me depressed... but not today! :) I've decided to count my blessings instead.

Just to name a few:

1. I woke up this morning.
2. I have a job.
3. I have an awesome family.
4. I have someone who loves me :)
5. I have a relationship with a Savior who puts up with me despite myself, my idiotic ways, and the poor choices I sometimes make... and He's helping me do better on a day-by-day basis :D
   
6. I'm almost done with "higher" education!
7. Drums, drums, and drumming :D

I highly encourage anyone feeling down on a day like today to jot down a list of blessings. It really helps a lot. I'm feeling pretty dang good :)

Started reading another book. I'm not into it enough yet to tell you about it, but it's probably gonna rock my world like When God Writes Your Love Story did. And from what little I've skimmed, it will. Just gotta apply it :)

Good things are happening. I'm just trying not to lose focus of the One who's making them happen :)

-KW

*Edit: As of 3pm, it's sunny and gorgeous outside. Further proof that life is a beautiful thing :) Bowling tonight with some amazing people :D

Briefly...

I've been informed I need to update by an avid follower of this blog, so I thought perhaps, I might appease this aforementioned person ;)

I'm happy right now. Things are looking up. The future is getting less and less frightening.

Just trying to stay focused on God right now. I know the closer we get to Him, the closer we'll get to each other... and that's majorly exciting :)

Less than two months, and I will be a college graduate... wow. Let's hope I can pull up that typography grade.

"Continue to reverence the Lord all the time, for surely you have a wonderful future ahead of you." - Proverbs 23:18 (TLB)

Keep me in your prayers as always,
KW

Reflecting in the Rain...

It's been a good lazy day... although I've actually made headway in rearranging the room. More room for the music equipment, less for the living space... And I can handle that :D

I'm just amazed that UAB actually gave us a fall break. Never expected that.

Actually, lots of good, unexpected things have been happening lately. The Lord is really blessing me. If I can stay focused and keep up with the self-control, I think I'll be in good shape. Just gotta keep surrounding myself with the good peeps He keeps placing in my life. Thankfully, it's getting easier. Keepin that prayer train on tha tracks! w00t w00t! Whatever it takes.

That's all. Work in about an hour... ONE and Momma G's after. This is why I love Thursdays.

"And everyone who has this hope fixed on Him purifies himself, just as He is pure." - 1 John 3:3

-Kdawg

P.S. 3 more days... and I couldn't be more excited :)

Words to live by...

"Just keep on keepin on." :)

This is the final week of my 21 day fast/consecration. I've learned so much about just letting go and trusting God that it's not even funny. Once again, I've found that when I fully trust this situation to Him, good things happen. When I start worrying and doubting, things don't go as smoothly. However, prayer works, kids. I've slipped up a few times over the last few weeks, but I know I'm forgiven if I only ask for it. God has been dealing with me about certain habits and He's giving me ways out of them. He even says in 1 Corinthians 10:13 that you will never be tempted beyond what you're able to resist. That's reassuring, but at the same time, a little disheartening... because I'm realizing now that I could have resisted certain things... But "He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9). It's a daily battle sometimes, but God is showing me what's wrong/right, revealing truths to me, surrounding me with some pretty amazing people, and building up my tolerance. And that pretty much rocks my face off.

Good things are happening and I'm taking notice. :)

I now have in my possession a book from a friend of mine... She's very convincing sometimes... In fact, I'm not exactly sure how she suckered me into this one. I won't tell you the title, for fear that you'll judge me... but it starts with a "Redeeming" and ends with a "Love." Do'h! ;)

“Keep watching and praying that you may not enter into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” - Matthew 26:41 (emphasis added).

With love and patience,
Kendrick

What I've found to be true...

Distance, in fact, does make the heart grow fonder.

Still praying, still hoping, and still waiting :)

Fret not!

I must say, I feel quite at peace right now... about everything. The test, life, etc... It all feels good... Like it's all gonna work out. :)








and that's a beautiful feeling.

A Minuscule Musing

Even when I'm stressed out beyond all reasonable measure, God is still good :)

It's all about the little things... and having awesome friends to help you sweat the big things.

It's getting better. One day at a time.

Now, I just gotta pass these classes :/ Gotta step it up a notch and stay focused no matter how good or bad my circumstances may seem to be. He said He would never give me more than I could handle... and I'm holding Him to that! :)

Now... to work I shall go! Carpe Diem!

-KtothaW

Wow.

Just a quick note to tell you how good God is.

My car tag unexpectedly came up due for this month (aka I forgot about it lol). Me being poor and in college, I honestly didn't have enough for it. I started to panic a little, but finally calmed down enough to ask "God, I don't know how I'm going to do this, but You are going to have to help me." I didn't give anymore thought to it after that.

Not even 3 hours later, my boss hands us all $100 bills and says "Congrats for helping us meet our goals for last month."

That just about covered my tag payment completely.

God is good... all the time. Never forget that. Trust Him and stuff will work out.

That is all :) Happy Friday!

-K.W.