Tired...

I'm done asking for more time.

• More time to get my life together.
• More time to get my spirituality together.
• More time to heal.
• More time to become a better potential mate.
• More time to work on my problem areas.
• More time to finish school.
• More time to find a job.
• More time to figure out His will for my life.
• More time to become financially stable.

Now I'm just going to take my time.

• No more cycles.
• No more inconsistency.
• No more drama.
• No more heartache.
• No more rushing.
• No more rash decisions.
• No more decisions without Him.
• No more guilt.
• No more failures and shortcomings.

I'm done with that. I've started stagnating and I don't like it. Time to move forward. Now who's with me?

For the record, I choose not to talk to you as much because it hurts to talk to you... and in recent days, each conversation has ended in argument or tears, and I'm weary of that. That doesn't mean my silence is permanent. There's not a doubt in my mind that we can be friends. However, I feel I'm more of a distraction to you than anything right now.

So in the nicest way possible, and as friend who is beyond tired of seeing his friend half-arse her way through life, I say: Chill out and grow up. You have so much potential that you're wasting by seeking after trivial things. Things that will let you down. Focus on the things that mean something... God, family, school... Everything else can, and will fall into place after those. Call it "Sunday School" all you want, but it's true and you can't deny that. Swallow that pride (and spit out that fire)... and live your life the way you know you need to live it, because you were meant to live for so much more than what you're living for.

Yeah... I said it.

No concluding remarks. This is it.
-KW