continued...

(writing this out is therapeutic, therefore, I'll continue to do so.)

Oh yeah... and I'm getting really tired of being manipulated.
My trust continually wanes. The white lies, as little as they may seem, are eating away at it. And everyone knows, if there's no trust in a relationship, there is no relationship.

There's no reason to hang out with him if something's not happening... it just doesn't make sense.

I don't deserve to be treated this way. I'm a nice guy and I'm actually starting to believe people when they tell me that. I have a lot to offer someone and I deserve way better than this mess.

And yet for some reason, I still stick around doing the same things and expecting different results...
Logically, this does not make sense... and is quite stupid on my part.

Stepping back for a bit to view the situation through normal eyes, as opposed to emotionally charged eyes, has helped a lot... Without that constant twinge in my heart, I can actually rationalize things... Crazy, I know, right?

I just need resolve. I am so over this.

Game over.

(who knows, maybe more later. i like this way of expression)