From my trip.

12/19/09 8:45pm (mtn. time)

As my time here at Elijah Ministries in the wilderness country of Craig, Colorado comes to a close, I reflect. They (whoever “they” may be) say that the best way to learn about one’s self is through solitude. Boy, were they right. Over the past few days, I’ve witnessed myself through a full spectrum of emotions. I’ve scrutinized aspects of my existence. I’ve vowed to make changes. But above all else, I’ve vowed to let God handle it. See, the main thing I’ve discovered is that God really does have everything under control and that I don’t need to worry. I showed up here being all pushy and like “Ok God, I’m here. I need answers for this, this, and this right now.” Well, God in his infinite wisdom decided to smack me upside the head and give me a simple answer to my complex questions (in modern terms): “Chill… chill and let me handle it. Here’s some peace courtesy of my Word. Wanna know My Will? Keep reading and praying.” And that’s just what I did :) I addressed things that needed addressing and He gave me peace about them. I was able to forgive myself for wrongs I committed in the past. I was able to forgive others for the wrongs they committed against me… and that was so unbelievably refreshing.

Being alone has given me the opportunity to remember what I used to be, see what I’ve become, and realize what I’m becoming… and how to move forward on the right path. And that’s an amazing feeling at this point in my life. I now feel I know myself. I realize how difficult it is for someone who is surrounded by people constantly and always attached to his phone to be cut off from the outside world lol. I’m glad it happened though. Now, I’m looking forward to going home with a new vision, a renewed purpose, and a peace that passes all understanding. To God be the glory, forever and ever, Amen!