Growth

I have two options:

1. Grow up and accept the tough changes I'm going through in this transition to true maturity.
2. Die.

Option two may be easiest, but it would accomplish nothing. My purpose on this earth isn't yet fully realized.

I only wish that option one could be easier.

I have all the "right" answers and I know God is with me, I just need help applying them and fully placing my faith in Him.

I need balance... and I need to retain the lessons I learn instead of making the same mistakes over and over again.

Can anyone relate?

Acceptance is the hardest thing. Realizing your flaws, shortcomings, mistakes, and failures is a very painful process in and of itself. That's not even considering the pain involved in fixing those aforementioned problems.

But I know I can't keep running away from something when it gets uncomfortable.

"There is NO growth in a comfort zone and NO comfort in a growth zone." - Unknown.

My biggest problem: Putting too much emphasis on the gift and not enough on the Giver.

This season is very dry... but I know that the growth that will come out of it will be unparalleled to any growth I've experienced so far in my life.

This is it.

I'm not the same person I used to be. And I never want to go back to what I was.